<p>For years, I've dreamt of what college life could bring and while some things changed, there was always one constant.</p><p>It didn't matter how wild I allowed my imagination to run, it always led me to the same place in the end.&nbsp;</p><p><br></p><p>It led me to him.&nbsp;</p><p>My future was clear, and he was it.&nbsp;</p><p><br></p><p><br></p><p>Until suddenly ... he wasn't.&nbsp;</p><p><br></p><p><br></p><p>Now I'm a shell of who I was, on a path too blurry to follow, and I see no way out.</p><p>No way up.&nbsp;</p><p><br></p><p><br></p><p>They say first loves last forever.</p><p>That's exactly what I'm afraid of.</p>