<p><span style="caret-color: rgb(51, 51, 51); color: rgb(51, 51, 51); font-family: Arial, sans-serif;">My dreams were always in black and white, once in a while, I'd be gifted something gray.&nbsp;</span><br style="caret-color: rgb(51, 51, 51); color: rgb(51, 51, 51); font-family: Arial, sans-serif;"><br style="caret-color: rgb(51, 51, 51); color: rgb(51, 51, 51); font-family: Arial, sans-serif;"><span style="caret-color: rgb(51, 51, 51); color: rgb(51, 51, 51); font-family: Arial, sans-serif;">Until her.</span><br style="caret-color: rgb(51, 51, 51); color: rgb(51, 51, 51); font-family: Arial, sans-serif;"><br style="caret-color: rgb(51, 51, 51); color: rgb(51, 51, 51); font-family: Arial, sans-serif;"><span style="caret-color: rgb(51, 51, 51); color: rgb(51, 51, 51); font-family: Arial, sans-serif;">Then, I broke her. I tore her up. I shattered her. But she was breathing, living, and I knew damn well, she was on the verge of loving, but it couldn't be me.</span><br style="caret-color: rgb(51, 51, 51); color: rgb(51, 51, 51); font-family: Arial, sans-serif;"><br style="caret-color: rgb(51, 51, 51); color: rgb(51, 51, 51); font-family: Arial, sans-serif;"><span style="caret-color: rgb(51, 51, 51); color: rgb(51, 51, 51); font-family: Arial, sans-serif;">I turned from her for the red white and blue. Because war, destruction, hell even death was more welcome than the possibility of hurting her.</span><br style="caret-color: rgb(51, 51, 51); color: rgb(51, 51, 51); font-family: Arial, sans-serif;"><br style="caret-color: rgb(51, 51, 51); color: rgb(51, 51, 51); font-family: Arial, sans-serif;"><span style="caret-color: rgb(51, 51, 51); color: rgb(51, 51, 51); font-family: Arial, sans-serif;">I didn't deserve her, and she sure as f*@^ didn't deserve me.</span></p>