The author begins her story by remembering that she had a nervous breakdown after enlisting in the Navy and as time passed not dealing with her bipolar depression and traumatic stress, she eventually lost control after the death of her mother. That begins her story in Narcotics Anonymous, her step program, journaling, and healing from her pain. "I can only pray that as you read my treatment progress, and my spiritual journey through biblical teachings, prayer, and meditation, you can begin to understand the difficulties and obstacles in overcoming addiction. It's not just about drug addiction but what led to the addiction that we fail to recognize, accept and handle in our own way." -Antonette Brown